Fragments of Aria

Hello everyone :) This shall be my first post since we've entered the last month of 2012, December. This also will be a special post since I could not ignore the guilt that have been tormented me so. The guilt has always accompanied me ever since my semester break was over and when I was doing some things, it would always get me thinking about the unforgivable things I did... to this certain someone . Today is my little sister's birthday by the way and also... the person 's, which explain the sudden outburst and me, deciding to finally pour it out here. To tell you the truth, the reason I want to write the things I will about to write is to hope that some way or another the person would come across it and know the reasons behind my ridiculous actions.  First, I want to apologise to you for I believe... I have wronged you in so many ways. You have been so kind to me, been there for me during the times I needed someone to just hear me out and offered the words to co

Hey peeps. I suppose it has been awhile hasn't it? My college life has begun once again, say buhbye to first semester break and aloha to second semester. Though technically it has only been the third day since it began so can't say I've been that busy really. That was just me and my plain excuse as a procrastinator ;) The first day was surprising normal. All of us were just being ourselves -- socially awkward regardless of sex. Our lecturer for the first class, which was Programming by the way, was late so all of us just stood outside the lab and awkwardly interacting with another while some congratulated me for my last semester exam's result. Thank you guys :) Couldn't have done it without those awesome people on my side! Going party  together, study together in the library and even skype call to study hahaha Never felt like I really belong somewhere before. I guess that's one of the good things of having small people in a course. Then we met some

Where it ended ( Part I ). That seemed more than just a rendezvous; It was a tryst. That seemed more than just friendship; It was love. That seemed more than just the beginning; It was an ending. She sat on the deserted bench almost impatiently in the outskirts of town and her harebell-coloured dress looked as if it was damped by the dewdrops after the small town of Newbury had to endure quite the storm for a few days, but for Anneliese Alden it was longer than just mere few days. She had to stay inside her room and to remain only within the radius of the family manor against her own will. Then she was left in despair seeing the weather did not permit her – or anyone else for that matter – to take even a step outside. Socializing was momentarily aborted for the people there and hence, a ball was to be held in the town’s hall as a means to recompense for the lack of interactions and dancing. As the sky gradually began to show signs of clearing from the unending rain

Bonjour again everyone. :) As usual there was nothing particularly interesting or out-of-the ordinary happened in the past few days or after my previous post. Just kept myself busy doing well, things, sadly, writing was not a part of them. Speaking of which, the book I'm reading (Lady of the Rivers) has been fairly good so far, a bit slow but good and now I'm scared to finish it off because that will only mean I no longer have any book to read, that is why I've decided to take it slow. I continue reading it and sometimes, watch some series like the recent one that I've watched, another splendid BBC mini-series, an adaption of the Little Dorrit by Charles Dickens starred Claire Foy and our very own Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy (Pride & Prejudice, 2005) -- Matthew Macfadyen . The character Arthur Clenham in Little Dorrit was the exact opposite of his role as Mr. Darcy. What a total coincidental contradiction indeed! The series touched me so as though I was on a rol

I can't remember the last time I held a new book in my hands. Oh wait, I do. It was Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen, but of course you would know who, it was after all one of the famous works in history. I wanted to try a book of a different genre but it seems I just.. can't. I'm so in love with history-- I mean, the fiction kind and European . I was gonna go for something magic-ish or crime/detective sorts, alas, it was not to be, instead, I bought another Historical Fiction (15th Century), Medieval, Romance book. It's the third instalment for the Cousins' War trilogy by Philippa Gregory who have written a lot of historical fiction books. I sure hope it would be as good as the previous books and can match up my expectations as well as be one of my favourite historical fictions so far, next to The Painted Lady by Maeve Haran.  Jacquetta, daughter of the Count of Luxembourg and kinswoman to half the royalty of Europe, was married to the great Engl

These past few days, I have to say, have been so great to point they seemed to be nothing but just a dream that I would soon to wake up from. College has been great, friends are awesome as always and life's good. It also seems I have also becoming somewhat... bold with words. Words that I would never thought I would say. Let's just I'll be all embarrassed when I say it but I did. Allow me to be Frank. Get it, FRANK? As in Frank Sinatra? AHAH, I just got it when I re-read the title of one of Westlife's albums before. Man, I'm so slow. I have also been singing awfully a lot, which suddenly got my family's attention. I didn't know while I was gone singing turned into a crime? orz Or maybe it's because I sing a bit... too much. In the morning, during lunch, just doing nothing, go to people's houses and while sleeping. Exactly, it's not a wonder why my family suddenly questioned about it. What can I say, I'm just happy?  :9 Stil

The exact date marked to be the weirdest day I ever had amongst all my college days. So far. So far? Because I know there will be more weird, strange, ODD days to come in the future. Why? Simple, because everyone -- I mean really EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THOSE AWESOME PEEPS -- were being so not... them . How I wish I had taken a photo of them but sadly no. That day totally caught me off guard. Started froommm, the glasses boy who I dubbed 'Never judge a boy by its appearance.' He has a high level of intense sarcasm and scary retorts but all of a sudden he was trying to be almost... cute. ON THAT DAY I MEAN. And today... too. orz He came to where my friends and I were sitting -- which were at in the front-row seat btw -- and he was like 'Whatchaaa doing?' My friend and I: O___O What in the name of-----*beep* THAT WAS SO WEIRD. Then another guy who suddenly lay on the desk in a very uhh, weird and sorta disturbing pose. LOL. Then another guy who was always quiet in class, join

...or it should have been I reap what I sow really. These past few days have been all great. I realized the treasures I have and promise that I would not lose sight of them again. I have also realized what grave situation I am in and it's all my fault... Some time during my college days, I've learned many things in life, studies and more. I've also learned how life is so short to be a chicken of not doing something you would totally regret later. Well, my friend sorta gave me the courage to talk to this person who I kiiiinda admired, just... admired . He is a friend, yes just a friend. Not the best friend kind or anything. He's just super nice to everyone and that's not even the reason I admired him so, well sure, being nice is awesome but what I admired about him so much is that, he sounds so intelligent when he speaks. Ahahaha, hilarious? He's far different than most of the guys I know, not that the guys I know are total arses or anything, he's just... un

Dear my friends out there, I really, really -- from the very depth of my heart -- want to thank you for responding to my post below. I was caught in a moment of intense insecurity, which explains why I wrote such thing in the first place :x Point is, I didn't think anyone would actually read that post hahaha But when I finally noticed the responses I got from my friends even though I only know them virtually, I... feel so happy like 'Ah, so there are people out there who cares for me...' I'm just mad at myself for not noticing it sooner 'cause I didn't get any email notifications, which I normally do but I don't know what happen. OK STOP RAMBLING ARIA. :| Again, I just want to thank you and say you mean as much to me as well. And, Mayu-nee I wanna wish you good luck on your newly-embarked journey in Penang.. was it? I know you can do it because you are the person who I admired so much within this five years of knowing you and probably more to come. If y

So it has been... quite the while. It seems I've completely abandoned my blog. Busy or not, it's not an excuse. Well anyway, so far, I have actually entered university and started my college life for some time now. It's fun, yes, very. In fact, I think of my college buddies as one, big happy family considering those who took the same course as I do aren't that many, around 4 girls (including me) and 15 or so guys? I don't mind really, they are all cool people and for once, I feel as if I fit in with these people. We went to The Curve together and watched The Dark Knight Rises on the second day after its first aired in Malaysia then we walked around since it's already night. During Ramadhan, we iftar together, conquering the second floor of the McDonald building hahaha. And some more activities like playing games together in an internet cafe. To summarize all, I had tons of fun with them and looking forward to another (roughly) 2 years with them. And tick, tock,

. . .where a lot of TV series comes to an end... a lot of my favourites too... damn sad . Last Sunday was Once Upon A Time's season finale, and it just got so good too. Jeesh. Last week was New Girl. Then this week will be Nikita's season finale, as for Revenge, another one more episode before the season finale. But most of all last night... was Hawaii Five-0. . . DAMN.I.DON'T.THINK.I.CAN.WAIT.UNTIL.SEPTEMBER! I hate how the writers always leave us hanging for more. I mean, literally! With all the dramas thrown up into this one episode and the suspense. JEESH. They're making it harder for me to live my life while waiting for September to come for the next season. How could I? With the Kono part in the end. Oh goodness. ADAM NOSHIMURI , go save your girl. NOW. I was so sad when there was no one there to save her. I know, Steve and Danno have other things to take care of. And Chin, well, figures he went for his wife. Adam, y u no make any appearance ? Lenkov, y u no let A

The bright late morning sunlight streamed through the large window and you are awakened to a.... YES! Happy morning! ....Wow, I honestly don't know what the heck is up with me... I mean what's up with that corny greeting? And why can't I get this smile off my face and this giddy-ish feeling off my chest..? Actually, I've acted this strangely for some days now but it didn't bother me that much until... now. I woke up at 3AM oh-so-suddenly, then came to the realization that I fell asleep with my laptop on right in front of my face and since I couldn't go back to sleep, I decided to continue to watch the new show I have just recently encountered yesterday. Yep, I am addicted. While watching I started to giggle for no absolute reason. I mean, it's not a comedy show for sanity's sake... it's a police-people-dying series........ well there was this adorable scene between my two favourite characters in the show, maybe that was why I suddenly burst into gig

Not intended to sound oh-so-serious out of nowhere or anything but it's just that... I feel completely hopeless. ZERO.INSPIRATION. There were a lot of times that I wanted to write again but whenever I was getting ready, there would be a pause. I don't know where to start. I can't start. Not writing, I feel like a big part of myself has disappeared. Writing has always been a part of my life as long as I can remember. When in high school, continuous writing was the most part of the lesson I had anticipated and I nearly felt sorry for my teacher hahaha. Had to read my essays from three to five pages. ONE. ESSAY. Back then everything was my inspirations. I remember I wrote about a friend of mine in the internet universe on my FORM 4 final exam. See, everything I see, listen and do gave me inspirations back then but now... nada . Or should I say rarely. A few weeks ago, I attempted to write again and took me almost three days to think of what to start with and took me nearly th

After so many months, as usual I made a new look for my personal blog. This time with a whole new fresh theme. I also made it to be more simple but I think it's nice. Let's just hope with the new look and all, I would post more frequently.. at least once in two weeks! Ahahaha. Gotta admit it, the blog looked pretty much dead before. Guess my time would mostly spend on both Aika and... watching MORE shows. Haha. Lately, I was introduced to a new TV Series by a friend 'White Collar.' It has hint of Leverage with the whole conman thing and all but not as awesome as Leverage itself though -- personal thought by the way. But still, worth the watch... so many more episodes I need to watch since it's already... at season 3. WHOA indeed.

Everyone must have gotten the idea that I was busy... playing AikaSEA and they are 75% correct. What an incurable obsession, thanks Mayu-nee. Ahahah. But it's not like I'm really obsessed. I stopped... occasionally. It's just that, I do frequently grow bored of it, but I just can't stop play it whenever I see my level, I have the urge to get stronger and avenge all my deaths by the Pkers or as I called them, the TERMINATORS. After the last post, I had been pk-ed again by the hands of this person I wanted to talk to for so long because he was Malaysian so I found him to be easier to talk than most people but in the end... tragic. He came to me whilst I was fighting and said hello, then BAM, game over. At least he took the liberty to say hello before slaying me..... NOT ! At that moment, I simply stared at my laptop's screen and sighed. That must be how the world works in Aika; the Prey-Predator relationship. The tragic event led me to eventually choose PvE inste

As you can see, for nearly days now, I got caught up playing this MMORPG introduced by Mayu-nee . To think it can be this addictive, well sometimes it can be a bit boring without some friends to go on a dungeon quest together but I'm still hoping. The world there is like the fantasy universe that I have always hoped to go travel around, despite it is only virtually. But hey, at least it's free. I've got my ups and downs while playing that game. My ups would be every time I leveled up.. my downs would be those freaking human slayers lurking around, which I call them the ' TERMINATOR .' I mean seriously, the first time I got pwned was when I was walking oh-so-lalala to Joshua Farm, then BAM! 'Game over, do you wish to restart at your save point?' Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? I was traumatized. Because it was effin' scary. So sudden.. I didn't even get the chance to see the face of my killer. Since I was subjected to the lasting shock that resulted from that e

How long has it been since then, 2.. 3 weeks? I lost count. Dang , and 2012 has just begun too, yet I failed already to become a frequent blogger. You could say, I was busy ... in the beginning. Right after the one week Lunar new Year holiday, I reverted back to my old lazy self. Spend my days lazing around like a boss , daydreaming like a boss and go for a jog in the morning like ... something . You awesome people are probably wondering what nonsense is this girl blurting about now? Busy ? Oh yes, I was with a certain project. During the break, the RP Cluster gang and I sort of bonded in our own, special way. No , not that kind of perverted way, instead by spamming . It seems all the members have found their inner, hidden talent... that is, spamming. I couldn't even believe I was capable of doing so, but after that one night of posting comments equally to 1,138 ... it's obvious. Those members possessed true spamming talents! Maybe I should put a sign like ' BEWARE! Sp

As you can probably hear, the first song that will boom out from your speaker is... none other than ' Winnie the Pooh .' Ahahaha, I thought I should lay off the gloominess and the sentimental music playing in the background, rather put some happy music to cheer up the atmosphere of the blog a bit. Rest assure, my obsession with Winnie the Pooh is not as sudden as it seems. In fact, I am actually, a big Disney/Classics dork. I mean... who isn't ? They played a big role in my childhood. I remember re-playing the tapes from Snow White to the Little Mermaid because back then there were no CDs, even if there was any, it would be as expensive as a PS3. Okay, maybe that was a bit too expensive but you get the picture. I was so happy when Disney released a new Winnie the Pooh movie last year. Of course with the same ol' (adorable) Christopher Robin. Too bad the real Christopher Robin wasn't as cute -- personality-wise. I don't think what Mr. Milne did anything wrong th

...Really, I just have way too much time on my hands don't I? Yes, I wrote this post out of extreme boredom. I don't know what should I do.. sure I have lots of things to do and all but... I just can't get on it. Lol, again with the excuses. Last weekends, since I honestly have way too much time to myself, I made another banner (again). Though, it intended to be a wallpaper. In the end it becomes a banner and a wallpaper that took me nearly two whole days. Voila ; Featuring all the main characters (so far... maybe) that have been on my mind for some time now. Yes, the blonde on the left and the gray-haired on the right are new and not yet to be revealed. Let's hope I can introduce them soon in the later chapters. Personally, I like them because of their roles in the story are somewhat different from the other current characters in the story, and I am also trying different culture other than the baroque-fantasy style. But regrettably, I am still somewhat lacking in tha

Oui , as the title says, nouveau chapitre or instead, new chapter of Dances of the Evanescent. Chapter XX (20!!!) - The Contradiction. We are now back to Alice-focused of the story and this time, she has a small, brief conversation with Quess. When I say 'brief' like really brief and quick. I honestly wanted to put more dialogues but my teacher's words keep telling me inside my mind, 'too many dialogues are bit immature, try to refrain of putting dialogues and...' whatnot, I forgot the last part. :| And in the last part, I revealed an certain ability for the character Mayu. I used fonic symbols to capture that fantasy feeling and it directly translates as; 'O' divine maiden, Ceres. Bless me with thy power; petra.' Petra also means rock in Greek by the way. So, tell me what you think and until next time my lilies~:)

Currently, I am in a somewhat troubled situation. It's already 2012, and I still have no clue of what I want to achieve in life or even what I wanna do in the future. I have to come up with answers soon as starting from January 9th, I need to fill the form for Universities/Colleges application. Thus the predicament I am in. I tried asking my mum but... she couldn't provide the answers I needed. There are actually many things I want in life.. many impossible things. I don't wanna end up in situation where I were to choose a course then suddenly, I realized that course just not meant for me so I had to change to another course. I don't want to waste time just like that now do I? But what should I choose when I have no talents whatsoever. Gosh, if only I would be more confident with myself, but that's how reality is.. if people say I can write, then there are other millions people in the world (and some I even know) that could write, flawlessly, void of any grammatica

Ah, yes. Recently, I took the liberty to complete my unfinished banner that was deserted for a month now. I intended to make a new, OFFICIAL banner of the series, 'Dance of the Evanescent' but then I came to the realization, I could not put all the characters in one banner. HOHOHO. So, voila . :) ...sooooo~? This banner is to commemorate the encounter between Alice and Mayu (as well as Quess.) I shall introduce the characters above and what role do they play in DOtE; from left to right. Behind: Chloe, Mayu, young Quess and Zachary. Front: Alice, Quess. As you can see, there are two Quess. Yep. Even I fancy this character I created myself (although he is inspired by this certain character). Very, very strange indeed. And the middle lady shall remain a mystery for the time being. :) As for the chapter, I have finally updated DOtE with chapter XIX - A Soldier's Honour . This chapter is more or less; Zachary-focused. Frankly speaking, I did not intend to make it into one but