You Reap What You Sow!

...or it should have been I reap what I sow really.

These past few days have been all great. I realized the treasures I have and promise that I would not lose sight of them again. I have also realized what grave situation I am in and it's all my fault...

Some time during my college days, I've learned many things in life, studies and more. I've also learned how life is so short to be a chicken of not doing something you would totally regret later. Well, my friend sorta gave me the courage to talk to this person who I kiiiinda admired, just... admired. He is a friend, yes just a friend. Not the best friend kind or anything. He's just super nice to everyone and that's not even the reason I admired him so, well sure, being nice is awesome but what I admired about him so much is that, he sounds so intelligent when he speaks. Ahahaha, hilarious? He's far different than most of the guys I know, not that the guys I know are total arses or anything, he's just... unique. I don't know if he's really IS intelligent but the conversations, topics I talk with him are not your typical topics.

And so, I had the courage to start a conversation with him once and slowly we talked a lot, courtesy of a friend of mine for the advice to just keep talking to him and then one day, even just one day, when we won't be talking -- feels totally wrong. I took her advice and I reaped what I sowed...


It became the other way around. Instead of him, it's me who can't stand of not talking to him even for one day since I'm so used to talk to him... and whenever we aren't talking, somehow... it feels something is funnily yet strangely missing...

No, I'm not hoping something to bloom from what I'm feeling. I like the fact we are friends and I'm so okay with it. What bothers me is that I am so used to talk to him... maybe it's better this way you know.. to keep a distance. We both have our own lives back then why should it change now?

I so need to find something to distract me now... game, yeah, video game. I need that. And a new book. Gotta buy one ASAP!


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