Conflicting Feelings
I am well aware that I would constantly make bad choices. I mean, it's 'life' after all, we would learn from those mistakes that we've done and try to improve ourselves. Regardless, this is the same choice that I keep making when I know all along that how the outcome would be. Sometimes I can't help myself. My mind tells me no yet the heart says otherwise, that is exactly what has been troubling me for some time now. When I decided to leave, I found myself coming back like a freaking rubber-band. Ugh, how weak-minded I am. Willpower ; completely zero . Determination? Out of the question. Perhaps it's because I've never quite feel this way and once I felt it... it hit me hard. Although I say that but at the same time I hold immense feelings of dislike and annoyance. I want him to suffer for no absolute reason. I want him to realize what he made me go through thus far-- whether he was conscious of it or not. I'm contradicting myself? Exactly. Basical