Conflicting Feelings
I am well aware that I would constantly make bad choices. I mean, it's 'life' after all, we would learn from those mistakes that we've done and try to improve ourselves.
Regardless, this is the same choice that I keep making when I know all along that how the outcome would be. Sometimes I can't help myself. My mind tells me no yet the heart says otherwise, that is exactly what has been troubling me for some time now. When I decided to leave, I found myself coming back like a freaking rubber-band. Ugh, how weak-minded I am. Willpower; completely zero. Determination? Out of the question.
Perhaps it's because I've never quite feel this way and once I felt it... it hit me hard. Although I say that but at the same time I hold immense feelings of dislike and annoyance. I want him to suffer for no absolute reason. I want him to realize what he made me go through thus far-- whether he was conscious of it or not. I'm contradicting myself? Exactly. Basically, I'm just that conflicted. Pffft.
...goodness gracious, that's just pure evil, Aria. *facepalm* Either that or I'm just one hell of a sadistic little being. hahahah
Regardless, this is the same choice that I keep making when I know all along that how the outcome would be. Sometimes I can't help myself. My mind tells me no yet the heart says otherwise, that is exactly what has been troubling me for some time now. When I decided to leave, I found myself coming back like a freaking rubber-band. Ugh, how weak-minded I am. Willpower; completely zero. Determination? Out of the question.
Perhaps it's because I've never quite feel this way and once I felt it... it hit me hard. Although I say that but at the same time I hold immense feelings of dislike and annoyance. I want him to suffer for no absolute reason. I want him to realize what he made me go through thus far-- whether he was conscious of it or not. I'm contradicting myself? Exactly. Basically, I'm just that conflicted. Pffft.
...goodness gracious, that's just pure evil, Aria. *facepalm* Either that or I'm just one hell of a sadistic little being. hahahah
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